Merely A Vapor

The biggest self-obstacle that I've had inlife is not making an impression in the world. I know that the world is always changing, nothing remains the same, but I wanted to leave an imprint. I wanted to be remebered once I'm no longer phsycially on Earth.

I would think about trees with engravings in them, stones or boulders like the Stonehenge, pyramids like the Egyptians, something that when life changes centuries later, I'm not just a mere wisp in the wind.

But that was pride.

I didn't know that was pride until just 10 minutes ago, and I've thought this way for over 2 decades, almost my whole life!

How naive of me. To have so much pride and not know it. To want something that I'll never obtain, to desire something worldly and self gratifying. With contritition I repent! With gratefulness, I thank the Holy Spirit for correction. With grace, I change my mindset and with humility I now live.

The Holy Spirit revealed to me in James 4:14, "...[What is secure in your life?] You are merely a vapor [like a puff of smoke or a wisp of steam from a cooking pot] that is visible for a little while and then vanishes [into thin air]," I am visible for a little while, and then will vanish. How much more of a blessing would I be if I lived my life for Christ, as a vessel. As merely a vapor, I can be used as the people in the Bible used water, animals and anything that God allowed (since "...He created the universe [that is, the universe as a space-matter-time continuum]. (Hebrews 1:2 AMP).

I always wanted to know how to be humble, I would feel myself self-consciously thinking I'm better than my peers. As superlatives, I was nicer, smarter, quicker, more accurate, more professional...etc, but the Lord revealed how to not just push those thought away-as I would supress them, but how to change my whole outlook; my perspective.

Give all the glory to God.

I would do this, sometimes, but He revealed how to conitnuously do this. "Humble yourselves [with an attitued of repentance and insignificance] in the presence of the Lord, and He will exalt you [He will lift you up, He will give you purporse]." (James 4:10 AMP). Through being insignificant, I am low, I have no pride. Through God geting all the glory- key word "all", I have nothing. I am merely a vapor, a puff of smoke, a wisp of steam. No pride; not anything. I wouldn't need a mark after I'm gone, craving to be memorable to the ones I loved because the One who gave me life would have me forever.

'Thank You Lord for this revelation, I feel like a huge pressure has been lifted off of me. Like I can live my life as the vessel You want me to be.'